You know what?
Posted by: tammy on: February 15, 2009
I might actually decide to change to livejournal. The new format is so easy to use and there are like 12345 more themes to choose from!
Should I should I should I???
It’ll be a nice fresh start.
Perhaps less emoness too.
Idk!!!
Random quiz, tiring day
Posted by: tammy on: February 10, 2009
Koped from Jia’s blog.
Shuffle songs or smth >< This is what I do to procrastinate. I really don’t know how to do Econs tutorial.
IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
It’s Not Over – Chris Daughtry
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Just Beyond The Stars – Becky Taylor
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Jazz Machine – Black Machine
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Livin On A Prayer – Bon Jovi
I’ve never heard this song before, honest! Has my name in the very first line O_O
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Can I Have This Dance – Zac Efron & Vanessa Hudgens
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Without The Brother Bear – Norwegian Recycling
T_T Never heard it either
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Changes – 3 Doors Down
Don’t remember listening to this ^^”
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Say Goodnight – The Click Five
Finally something more familiar.
Sounds like something I’d say! I’m a sleepy person ; )
WHAT IS 2+2?
I skipped this song cos it was some weird lyricless soundtrack thing.
亲爱的你怎么不在我身边 – 江美琪
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIENDS?
Black Dragon – Luca Turilli
Totally no link.
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I reshuffled this song cos I hated this one =P Anyway…
天使 – 李加靓
Oh yeah baby =) You’re my angel.
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Ben is Chasing Beautiful Girls – Norwegian Recycling
No link… This just isn’t my lucky day.
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
That’s All – Michael Buble
=(
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Wth Stick to the Status Quo? RESHUFFLE
Underneath Your Clothes – Shakira
HAHAHAHAHAHAH xD
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Gone – Chris Daughtry
Eh why all the same artists.
Anw, yeah I’m a gone case /_\
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
How To Touch A Girl
Oohlala~
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Shadow of the Day (Black Jarrell Remix) – Linkin Park
Lol.
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Friday Night – Click Five
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WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Anyone Else But You – The Moldy Peaches
Hmm. “Part time lover and a full time friend”?
T_T
WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Hero – Enrique Iglesias
I Give Up
HOW WILL YOU DIE?
敢不敢
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
The Way I Are (Rock Remix) – Timbaland feat. Keri Hilson & D.O.E
T_T saddistic
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
The Game Of Love – Santana feat. Michelle Branch
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Not Like That – Ashley Tisdale
Ooh…
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
If You Come Back – Blue
If you come back… From Malaysia! Hahaha jk. You’re already mine =)
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
A Thousand Miles – Vanessa Carlton
Awww =)
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
How Does It Feel – Avril Lavigne
How does it feel to be me?
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Kiss Me – Avril Lavigne
Heehee
WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
理想情人 – 杨丞琳
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Random quiz, tiring day
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Headache very bad now.
& no mood to do econs.
I can just go fail As la. F..
I think this is freaking cool
The Shit Theory
Posted by: tammy on: February 9, 2009
You start of as the vehicle, driven by someone. Bashed around and driven without knowing where you go.
Then, you become a shit. A shit magnet. You attract all kinds of shit to you, and you actually become a shit, say, by the side of the road or something.
You get stepped on, rolled on, and stuck under the vehicle wheel. You’re the shit under the tyre. But you enjoy it! Cos you just wanna get stuck to the vehicle for a while.
Then there’s the shit sponge. You see lots of shit and listen to their woes and sorrows and just soak it all up. Buay tahan.
Finally there’s the shit bucket, where the shit sponge may empty all the shit into you after it’s all soaked up.
Lol. This doesn’t apply to everyone. Just shit magnets, shit sponges and shit buckets.
I don’t make sense or dollars ^^
Lalala!
Oooh hopefully we’ll have Ong Lai late night dinner at Mos again! Whee! And there’s still the mega mega $300 dinner we have to go for.
Wth someone just pissed me off. What do you take me for? Some kind of… thing you can pick up and ask questions/favours as and when you want? Eff off. Just cos you’re older doesn’t mean you can bully people. Go figure these stupid small things out yourself yo. We still got studies to worry about…
Vday this Saturday <3 I wanna go vivo againnnn -hiiiint-. For what I also dunno. No ka-ching. Need to save…
I’m going nuts. Must be the food tonight. Hooked on Heads is seriously damn nice but I think it’s too spicy for me. Couldn’t tahan the kang kong and the yummy tomyum soup.
Omg cannot stand it. Go sleep liao!
I’m Sorry
Posted by: tammy on: February 3, 2009
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Quote Peng,
Why is 1 = 0?
cos 0 = 1
Bloody shit haha.
I’m sorry for the way I’ve been.
I think I need to talk to someone.
I’ll change.
I really need to.
Long Week Ahead
Posted by: tammy on: February 3, 2009
It’s a long, long week ahead.
Today marked the end of Orientation day 1!
Sigh. I regret to say I regret not being an OGL. But I did what I did for reasons which won’t really be understood by some. Some may say it’s foolish, that what I’m doing isn’t fair and that I shouldn’t continue doing what I do.
I’m going to spend less time on the computer. For a start, 2 hours max on weekdays, unless I have online meetings or essays or research or whatever academic ahgahblahs. I’m gonna do my best not to do my academic work on the computer because I find it’s a waste of time and very distracting…
I’m coming to terms with my bad habits and admitting them. Difficult, but a must-do.
I’ve already started blogging less, and it’s probably a good thing, although I’m really afraid of losing all these memories.
Tomorrow I want to attend Song and Dance sessions. It’s the only time I’ll be able to spend in Orientation. While the rest are out enjoying EA, I’ll be slogging through Math and Physics lecture, followed by GP and Math remedial… Hopefully Ong Lai will meet at Chinatown and give me an excuse to escape from school.
Wednesday, really have to attend math tuition. Gotta find out when S&D is happening.
Thursday, really have to attend econs tuition, and then rush to Pasir Ris and hope I won’t be too tired to rehearse for Ong Lai
Friday, Take 5 is the main challenge and then physics tuition in the afternoon (hope I don’t fall asleep). Maybe I’ll attend O’nite… If I’m still alive. I see no reason to attend it cos I don’t have an OG, but still…
Geez. Am I getting old or what? Keeping up with all these activities is really draining. Need to build up stamina.
I want this cold/flu thing to go away so I can kuai4 dian3 go running and swimming and training and etc.
Quote Wesley: “Dying from Deadlines, pun intended”
After Orientation ended helped to do some paperwork, and finished drawing the words onto the HH files. Pure sai kang I feel so proud.
The only glimmer of hope and ray of sunshine today was laogong when I saw him at around, what, 7 plus 8 plus for a nice quiet dinner at Mos. Felt so good spending time with him la. I forget all my worries and troubles. I feel calm. I feel safe. I can be myself. I feel HAPPY.
Although, due to the ongoing orientation program, I didn’t feel at ease when we were in J8. I can’t help it. It’s been almost 1 year 10 months. Why don’t I feel comfortable? It was only when he sent me home did I feel better. Better because we were in a quieter, more familiar environment where no one would see us go mad and freak out and do crazy nutty things like dancing around and singing stupid songs that will just attract -.-” or O.O expressions from others.
Anyway, today’s comfort was different from Saturday. Saturday he couldn’t really be himself and I couldn’t be myself either. Today we just bathed in each others’ presence and soaked in each others’ essence (okay sounds wrong). It’s like I was complete again, or at least, more complete than I’ve felt in a while.
I feel thankful to have that someone to rely on. I feel secure and more stable, but I also feel like I can’t stand on my own two feet sometimes. Am I becoming too dependent? I don’t know. Am I being spoiled? Perhaps. I thought after all this while we should be able to withstand those moments where we have to stand alone, because it’s inevitable that we can’t be by each others side 24/7. Our schedules, lifestyles and paths in life just don’t allow it.
Sometimes I wonder if we’re really built to last. When do you know when to give up? How do you know you should continue? When should you draw the line? How do you stop feeling a certain way? How when why who what where… The future is so uncertain all the time, I’m afraid. Afraid of rejection. Afraid of growing old. Afraid of being a used car, which value depreciates each year, after each relationship, so on and so forth. Afraid of the most random yet seemingly relevant things in life.
I don’t really have a close friend in school that I feel comfortable sharing my problems with. Maybe cos no one I know has encountered my kind of problem before. Maybe cos I’m afraid of their impressions of me. Maybe cos I’m just really tired and moody and sleepy. I feel like a schizophrenic talking to myself right now. I apologize to readers. I’m literally vomiting my problems out onto this white “canvas” thing for the world to see. Weird huh?
I’m forgetting about all homework at this very moment. The only thing that’s bothering me now is this throbbing headache which has been bugging me since the start of the day. Probably caused by sinus…
OKAY GO SLEEP NIGHT.
Patrizio Buanne – Forever Begins Tonight
Posted by: tammy on: February 1, 2009
Patrizio Buanne – Forever Begins Tonight
Patrizio Buanne – Forever Begins Tonight
We made a pact to take the time
To get to know each other deep inside
No rushing in to cross the line
It may be a little old fashioned but it feels so right
Been holding back for so long
What feels so right can’t be wrong
Baby you can read it in my eyes
Let’s write the story of our lives tonight
Don’t be afraid, turn down the light
Baby move in closer
It’s gonna be alright
This is the moment we’ll remember all our lives
Forever begins tonight
I know you fear those butterflies
But let me tell you a secret, so am I
But it’s OK
Baby it’s alright
Just follow our hearts now
What we feel inside
Yeah
Been holding back for so long
What feels so right can’t be wrong
Baby you can read it in my eyes
Let’s write the story of our lives tonight
Don’t be afraid, turn down the light
Baby move in closer
It’s gonna be alright
This is the moment we’ll remember all our lives
Forever begins tonight
And I know we will be one
When we see the morning sun
Don’t be afraid, turn down the light
Baby move in closer
It’s gonna be alright
This is the moment we’ll remember all our lives
Forever begins tonight
Don’t be afraid
18
Posted by: tammy on: January 31, 2009
I’m 18… And don’t really feel like it. I still feel kinda…
La la la la la ~
Though it does mean I can drink legally..
Thank you
Laogong (along with Marcel, Marvin, his mum and dad), Hiongs, Barry, Vicky, Wesley, Nick Oo, Tiffany, Yingxuan, Han lyn, Mr Ow, Jonlim, Yanhan, Kong, Ryan, Shiyang, Weiling, Yi Tyng, Shiao, Frankie, Violet, Jia, Yingjie, Kristin, Fangting, Yitong, Peng, Jianhong, Yanliang, Thashi, Macey, Brandon, Hui hui (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO!), John Cheo, Liangzi, Laethitia, Bebe, Bryden, Trisha, Leican, Eleanor, Karen, Mr Ng, Mark, Berlinda, Li Ying, Daryl, Xin Ping, Ee Lyn, Shanjee, Lu wen, Vicky, Li Zhao, Chun hui, Long Chuan, Claire Li, Zan Ng, Ashley, Shanya, Karishma, Nicolette, Mifiona, Daniel Goh, Wan Xin, Lianyu ma’am, Wang Xiang, Lu Yang, Isaac Yeong, Shi Kaye, Jean Hui, Rachel Oon, Tessa Ong, Elaine Lau, Cheryl Loh, Shimin, Marissa, Yingjing, Laura Tan, Soong Teck, Linette Tan, Debby, Amanda Miller, Si Yun, Xin Er, Gloria
(more than half the list were from facebook xD need to reply wall posts!)
All the people who said happy birthday when they saw me in school, sorry I couldn’t keep track
The Whole Oteam
& especially Siyun, Xin Er, Jonlim, Leonard, Kong and Laogong who helped to eat more than 10 peoples portions worth of food
Oteam meeting in the morning, hopefully some moments of bliss alone with laogong, and then a nice evening with a bunch of treasured friends =)
muahh!
Moping poops
Posted by: tammy on: January 30, 2009
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Some people just always land themselves in shit =P and I guess I’m one of them.
Some people are perpetually happy.
Some people just have that X-factor which draws people to them like bees to honey, and we don’t even know why (neither do they)
Some people just… Can’t get their heads straight when they need to.
It’s been a challenging week, and it’s gonna get more challenging as the weeks go by.
One of the Ten Rules to Live and Love By:
#3. Relaxing when times get tough; assuming that “this too shall pass” allows you to roll with the punches. If you know things will inevitably arise to challenge you, you can be more detached when they do. Problems become worse when we dig in our heels and try to force a solution. By relaxing into whatever struggle arises, we remain flexible and open to inspiration and insight.
Even if you have a hard time letting go, you can at least observe yourself taking things very seriously, which in itself helps to detach you from the experience of anxiety. Whatever is happening now won’t be happening a year from now, so just keep breathing through the situation and see if you can take things a little less seriously.
I think these Ten Rules will help guide me through the year, and perhaps beyond.
Happy Chinese New Year!
Posted by: tammy on: January 27, 2009
I don’t know whether I should feel happy or sad that my parents won’t let me go to Malaysia next year…
Maybe, with some persuasion, they might let me get to know laogong’s family. So when we actually announce our marriage, it won’t be too much of a surprise, y’know? ^^
Oh yeah, I’m sick =( as in ah-choo sick kind of sick. I sound like a man and a nuclear bomb went off in my head. If you open up my skull now everything’s probably blown to bits…
On a lighter and happier note, MONEYYY$$$ so far received is more than last year, which is a surprise cos there’s a financial crisis going on. But it’s only cos of the extra money my aunt gave me cos she included my birthday money in my ang pao.
Laogong said due to some tradition that was published in the newspaper, you’re not allowed to take naps or give ang paos on the first day of new year T_T I hope that’s not true. I took a nap today.
Speaking of today, let’s talk about today! So that I’ll tire myself out and go zzz after this. Sorry if my england a bit the powderful and my gramma a bit the outstandingz.
Woke up rather late, at around 11am+, cos I wasn’t feeling well. Too much heaty food. I practically downed half a container of pistachios the day before at my maternal grandma’s house (today I downed the other half xD). Doesn’t help that Aunty Emily is a supplier for CNY cookies.
Watched a bit of TV. A movie called “__ __ Gentlemen” starring Eddie Murphy was showing on Star Movies and my parents and I were hooked onto it. It was about how this conman became a congressman (for some reason I don’t know) and eventually decided he wanted to help people genuinely and exposed the corruption among the chairperson and other congressmen (I think). After the movie chionged and got ready for lunch at my paternal grandparents house. The traditional “zai” that my grandparents made was, as usual, yummy! I wanna know how to make it…
After the “lunch” was photo taking session! Super fun la! First time we took such crazy photos. Photos will be on facebook. Today my dad mum sis and I wore red outfits! Quite cool, though I feel my outfit wasn’t flattering. I miss the days when we were kids and wore cheong sums or qi paos…
Grandpa, papa and mama went to Toa Payoh to see Yufang’s grandpa (who is my grandpa’s older brother. Go figure) and bai4 bai4. I stayed behind with grandma to rest. Both of us are sick. Mei went to the Goh’s house.
I watched a bit of TV in the upstairs TV room before dozing off for about an hour. Caught the last part of Teen Titans movie. Had a hard time sleeping cos it’s really noisy outside, with all the cars and people. The windows aren’t exactly well insulated either. Oh well, what to expect. CNY ma… And there was that bunch of kids who broke the window and so my grandpa taped the cracked parts back instead of replacing the window pane…
After my parents came to fetch me, we picked up mei and went to popo’s house for dinner. Dinner was okay I guess. Nice to have some home cooked food ^^ Didn’t eat a lot, no appetite =/ Ate a lot of pistachios though =P and watched more TV. Unleashed is cool. Jet Li is fiERCE.
Went to Uncle Harry’s house for a while (he lives on the 6th floor, my popo lives on the 18th), watched a bit of Fairly Odd Parents and downed some cashews and famous amos cookies (with chocolate chips and macadamia nuts xPPP).
My voice is just gone. Haha.
I think I know where the headache originated from. Too much TV. HAHA. Tomorrow, going to Aunty Emily’s house. Hopefully there will be people visiting so got more $$$ ^^ jkjk.
SO… A Summary of the Current Resolutions for 2009:
#1. Sleep Earlier
#2. Focus and Concentrate on Studies
#3. Self-control with regard to seeing laogong
#4. Keep my room neat
#5. Spend less, save more money
#6. Exercise more
#7. Maintain current weight (laogong will stuff me with prawn mee if I lose anymore)
I should print this out and stick it on my wall and put it in my wallet. NEED. MOTIVATION. YEAHHH.
Good night!
